ambivalent.
i cant decide if i'm in a good mood or not.
met up with mingyan (and i wore HEELS whahahaha) at j8 for lunch where we caught up with each other, then went over to ms chek's place to visit her and coo at her little 2-month old boy. i wonder if mingyan's going to refer to him as "little (insert famous composer's name)" since she already calls nicholas "little beethoven" and apparently convinced half the school that ms chek did name her son that. admittably i did get lost in their conversation coz they were talking abt mingyan's plans which involved a lot of piano pieces and i know nuts abt it =X but hey mingyan! lend me your four-leaved clover if i go for med interview okie? lol but i feel like i haven't laughed so hard for ages, and it feels good when i get that extra determination to be a doctor again when i know that there are people who believe i can do it, the encouragement, that "if this is what you want, go for it." thank you. i will. =D
and then we had to leave because i had to go to work, and things went steadily downhill. firstly, i was cashier for the shift, and the very first patient i was supposed to collect money from walked right out of the clinic before any of us realised that she had to pay, least of all me since i wasnt even at the counter but in the consult room asking the dr to write a missing prescription. and then at dinner time the dr says my partner and me ought to take more initiative and not let certain patients wait for so long. but what we dont get is that the situations she cited as lack of initiative on our part didnt even happen today! and it seems kind of impossible to do as she instructed in a particular case because no matter what, the patient will still have to wait, so its back to square one. i felt quite terrible after that because it says something abt the perceived level of my competence.
i'm seriously beginning to dread going to work everyday. its kind of impossible not to make a mistake under such uncertain circumstances, where what you are taught as right turns out to be wrong the next week (or even the next day). and the paperwork to be done when there's an error in the system, because we are part of the entire network. the way mistakes get blown out of proportion sometimes. under such circumstances, its difficult not to feel like pushing the blame to someone else, although that a terrible thing to do. some things are easier said than done la. its easier to say use your common sense and take some initiative when you arent the one who will risk getting your head bitten right off by attempting to change things. and there's a new system in place next month. wth. more work to do. i will definately quit in june, irregardless of whether i'm staying in singapore (term starts in july) or going to australia (term starts in feb 2007). if the latter happens, i'm going job hunting again.
and then, i have to be the recipient of an extremely nicely rude woman who yelled over the phone over having to pay for another consult to get another prescription for her misplaced medicine. ranting about how stupid the system is. like hello, YOU lost your medicine, why is it MY fault? and she demanded to speak to the dr on duty and apparently she wasnt very polite either. then after that she called again to say that the dr said no need to charge for consult and would we please get the prescription ready coz she was dropping by. that phone call was frightfully polite. why? because she got her way. and after checking the system, we realised she didnt even need to pay upfront for the consultation! goodness. what's 5 bucks off your medical benefit for misplacing your (supremely important) medicine? if it was that essential, how could you lose it?! not to mention that she had an extremely sharp voice and when she appeared to collect the free prescription i couldnt help but think that there was an uncanny resemblence to HoLY. both gets on your nerves and makes you want to cover your ears when their voices are magnified.
but then, i've finished all my university essays! now to copy and paste them on the online form tmr morning, pay the application fees at an atm and i'm done with my university applications!
i find it quite ironic that i dont have to pay a cent for applying to australia (coz i got fee waiver for monash during the health sciences open house and uwa has no application fee) (apart from the isat fees) but i have to pay 20 bucks in all for nus and ntu applications.
off day tomorrow! (or rather, now since its 1am already) i cant tell you how happy i am. =D
busy times ahead! i've decided to take up the dizi performance. (god bless me and the performance) and my malay language lessons are starting =D if only ccf would hurry up and reply me, life would then be truly good. volunteering at ffth was because i didnt dare talk/interact much with people. but now that i dare, i want to do more.
met up with mingyan (and i wore HEELS whahahaha) at j8 for lunch where we caught up with each other, then went over to ms chek's place to visit her and coo at her little 2-month old boy. i wonder if mingyan's going to refer to him as "little (insert famous composer's name)" since she already calls nicholas "little beethoven" and apparently convinced half the school that ms chek did name her son that. admittably i did get lost in their conversation coz they were talking abt mingyan's plans which involved a lot of piano pieces and i know nuts abt it =X but hey mingyan! lend me your four-leaved clover if i go for med interview okie? lol but i feel like i haven't laughed so hard for ages, and it feels good when i get that extra determination to be a doctor again when i know that there are people who believe i can do it, the encouragement, that "if this is what you want, go for it." thank you. i will. =D
and then we had to leave because i had to go to work, and things went steadily downhill. firstly, i was cashier for the shift, and the very first patient i was supposed to collect money from walked right out of the clinic before any of us realised that she had to pay, least of all me since i wasnt even at the counter but in the consult room asking the dr to write a missing prescription. and then at dinner time the dr says my partner and me ought to take more initiative and not let certain patients wait for so long. but what we dont get is that the situations she cited as lack of initiative on our part didnt even happen today! and it seems kind of impossible to do as she instructed in a particular case because no matter what, the patient will still have to wait, so its back to square one. i felt quite terrible after that because it says something abt the perceived level of my competence.
i'm seriously beginning to dread going to work everyday. its kind of impossible not to make a mistake under such uncertain circumstances, where what you are taught as right turns out to be wrong the next week (or even the next day). and the paperwork to be done when there's an error in the system, because we are part of the entire network. the way mistakes get blown out of proportion sometimes. under such circumstances, its difficult not to feel like pushing the blame to someone else, although that a terrible thing to do. some things are easier said than done la. its easier to say use your common sense and take some initiative when you arent the one who will risk getting your head bitten right off by attempting to change things. and there's a new system in place next month. wth. more work to do. i will definately quit in june, irregardless of whether i'm staying in singapore (term starts in july) or going to australia (term starts in feb 2007). if the latter happens, i'm going job hunting again.
and then, i have to be the recipient of an extremely nicely rude woman who yelled over the phone over having to pay for another consult to get another prescription for her misplaced medicine. ranting about how stupid the system is. like hello, YOU lost your medicine, why is it MY fault? and she demanded to speak to the dr on duty and apparently she wasnt very polite either. then after that she called again to say that the dr said no need to charge for consult and would we please get the prescription ready coz she was dropping by. that phone call was frightfully polite. why? because she got her way. and after checking the system, we realised she didnt even need to pay upfront for the consultation! goodness. what's 5 bucks off your medical benefit for misplacing your (supremely important) medicine? if it was that essential, how could you lose it?! not to mention that she had an extremely sharp voice and when she appeared to collect the free prescription i couldnt help but think that there was an uncanny resemblence to HoLY. both gets on your nerves and makes you want to cover your ears when their voices are magnified.
but then, i've finished all my university essays! now to copy and paste them on the online form tmr morning, pay the application fees at an atm and i'm done with my university applications!
i find it quite ironic that i dont have to pay a cent for applying to australia (coz i got fee waiver for monash during the health sciences open house and uwa has no application fee) (apart from the isat fees) but i have to pay 20 bucks in all for nus and ntu applications.
off day tomorrow! (or rather, now since its 1am already) i cant tell you how happy i am. =D
busy times ahead! i've decided to take up the dizi performance. (god bless me and the performance) and my malay language lessons are starting =D if only ccf would hurry up and reply me, life would then be truly good. volunteering at ffth was because i didnt dare talk/interact much with people. but now that i dare, i want to do more.
posted by ger @ 11:26 下午
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